I always want what I can’t have. I want the impossible.
And, when I realize that there’s nothing I can say or do to get it, I generally give up.
There’s a big problem in that, and I don’t think I am alone here. I think here lately that God is showing me, day-in and day-out, that I’ll never be able to work my way toward things I want. Wanting impossible things, I feel, is exactly what God wants me to want for.
It’s in those things that God can show out. He can part the seas. He can bring down the wall. He can conquer the grave.
If I give up on my pursuits, having never taken my wants and desires to God – what does that say about my view of God? I’m glad that I’ve realized this and taken everything to Him, even selfish things. If He can create a universe, He can sort out my needs and wants along with my motives and His will.
How big is your God?
I seem to be learning more and more that I only think I know what I want to do or rather what God has designed me for instead trying to go by my past experiences and the opinions of others. Of course that’s just me but God has been helping me focus more and more and steering me to a path I often wander off of.
Yes. I tend to hyper-focus on one (or a few) thing(s) and I think God is just saying to Himself, “You’re so busy looking at the petal, that you can’t see the flower.” I think I don’t do enough “stepping back.”
It’s much easier to enjoy a Monet that way.